So over the past two weeks I have been feeling a lot of movement and kicking, and it just makes me smile. It is still unreal for me that in just about 3 months I will be holding my newborn son. And the movements and kicking make me give thanks for every sign of life. Like yesterday at the doctor’s office she listened to his heartbeat (150) and measured my belly. She said everything sounded great and that she would see me in 3 weeks – even the decrease in the time before our next appointment (up until this point it was every 4 weeks) gets me quite eager and excited.
And while it is feeling more and more real, and the life that God is gifting us with is more than concrete for us right now, we are still no where close to being ready. Are we ever ready? Can we read enough books? Chat with enough friends? Ask enough questions? Purchase enough “essentials”? Prep our homes enough? I don’t think so. But what we can do is give thanks for each and every moment of life that we feel, that we anticipate, that we nourish.
The life that is growing in my belly is quite the gift and one that I am called to care for and nurture – ready or not.
Dear Lord, allow me to be ready enough, and when I am not, help me to look to others who are. Amen.
Pastoring Momma 